Lately, I’ve been going through a tough time and not realizing it, different situations were making me so angry, bitter, hurt, disappointed, and a plethora of other emotions. I soon came to the conclusion, I didn’t like who I was becoming. My son kept saying I was mean, my boyfriend said it wasn’t a pleasure to be around me lately, and that I was taking all of my anger, frustration, feelings, and negativity out on everyone close to me. And so one day, just randomly in the bathroom one day I looked myself in the mirror, which was perfectly fine, not broken at all broken but, when I looked at my own reflection, it felt like I was looking into a broken mirror. Unbeknownst to me, I thought I was the same person but I could the cracks and brokenness that represented all the negativity in my life. On the outside I saw a beautiful girl who looked pretty put together, but on the inside I saw a beast. I for one didn’t recognize this girl. It was like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. She wasn’t the happy, lively, bubbly, talkative, and joyful person I was used to.
Now most people think that a broken mirror represents bad luck for 7 years, but I see it as a way to reveal the things beneath the surface, bringing knowledge and self-awareness to the viewer’s one, true self. A broken or cracked mirror can help bring light to the person’s interior, which is exactly what it did for me. Situations in life shape who we are but, we just have to make sure those situations and experiences don’t negatively impact our character. A few things I learned about myself and in general from looking at myself in that mirror:
- What Caused the Cracks?
When someone drops a mirror or breaks it in general, it got broken from something. There’s a root cause behind how it broke in the first place. Not paying attention, being careless, on accident, or whatever the case may be, somehow the mirror got broken. Looking at myself in the mirror, I realized I was so focused on the wrong things and wasn’t paying attention to what really mattered. I became overwhelmed, frustrated, and angry about the the situations at hand that, I didn’t see who I was becoming inside. The mirror made me stop and think about what caused me to break in the first place. And, although I can buy a new mirror, there would be no point if I continued to not address and avoid the real root causes behind the brokenness, continuing to break the mirror over and over again, creating a never-ending cycle. No matter how many mirrors you buy, if you don’t understand the reason behind the cracks, you’ll always end up with a cracked mirror.
2. Fix IT
You can always fix the interior within. A crack doesn’t mean that it (you) has to stay broken. Everyone has cracks in their mirror from hurt, disappointment, anger, heartache, and whatever else may have caused us pain in our lives. Even though the current mirror is broken you have the opportunity to buy a new one. If you look in the mirror and don’t like who is reflecting back at you, that their is your chance to reinvent yourself and become a better person. A person on the inside that will reflect the beautiful person on the outside.
Looking into that mirror, gave me the chance to self-reflect and really see who I was at that moment, made me realize who I was, and who I wanted to be. If you look at in the mirror and can’t accept who you are on the inside, then we can’t expect someone else to accept and love us, when we’re not even comfortable within ourselves. What you give others will be given right back to us. This made me aware of who I was at the moment, made me realize I was falling off, and allowed me to humble myself so that I can do what’s necessary to make positive changes to improve my quality of life for myself and my loved ones around me.
I urge everyone to self-reflect and take time for themselves in times of trials and tribulations and make sure they are still the same person they were before the suffering and pain. The cracks and brokenness shapes us, it can be good for us. It helps mold us into the person that we are today. But, what everyone should be mindful of, is making sure we use it for our good and not allow it negatively affect ourselves or the people around us. Self-reflecting brings healing, light, and the ability to see things for what they truly are. A mirror not only reflects our appearance, but it shows us who we are deep down inside our hearts and souls. It gives us the opportunity to see ourselves and if we don’t like what we see beyond the surface, the ability to change it.